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October 8th, 2008 (07:53 pm)

Just because I haven't been on here lately ^^;

▬ I am 5'4" or shorter.
▬ I think I'm ugly.
▬ I have many scars.
▬ I tan easily.
▬ I wish my hair was a different color.
▬ I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
▬ I have a tattoo.
▬ I am self-conscious about my appearance.(sometimes)
▬ I have/had braces.
▬ I wear glasses.
▬ I'd get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free, scar-free.
▬ I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
▬ I have had more than two piercings.
▬ I have had piercings in places besides my ears.
▬ I have freckles.

▬ I've sworn at my parents.
▬ I've run away from home. (Not technically..but yeah..)
▬ I've been kicked out of the house.
▬ My biological parents are together.
▬ I have a sibling less than one year old.
▬ I want to have kids someday.
▬ I have children.
▬ I've lost a child.

▬ I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
▬ Disney movies still make me cry.
▬ I've snorted while laughing.
▬ I've laughed so hard I've cried.
▬ I've glued my hand to something.
▬ I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
▬ I've had my trousers rip in public.
▬ I've had stitches.
▬ I've broken a bone.
▬ I've had my tonsils removed.
▬ I've sat in a doctor's office with a friend.
▬ I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
▬ I've had serious surgery.
▬ I've had chicken pox.

▬ I've driven over 200 miles (1000km) in one day.
▬ I've been on a plane.
▬ I've been to North America.( I live here :P )
▬ I've been to Niagara Falls.
▬ I've been to Japan.
▬ I've been to Europe.
▬ I've been to Africa.

▬ I've been lost in my city.
▬ I've seen a shooting star.
▬ I've wished on a shooting star.
▬ I've seen a meteor shower.
▬ I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
▬ I've pushed all the buttons in a lift.
▬ I've been to a casino.
▬ I've been skydiving.
▬ I've gone skinny dipping.
▬ I've played spin the bottle.
▬ I've crashed a car.
▬ I've been skiing.
▬ I've been in a play.

▬ I've met someone in person from the internet.
▬ I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
▬ I've seen the northern lights.
▬ I've sat on a roof top at night.
▬ I've played chicken.
▬ I've seen the RHPS.
▬ I've eaten sushi.
▬ I've been snowboarding.

▬ I'm single.
▬ I'm in a relationship.
▬ I'm available.
▬ I'm engaged.
▬ I'm married.
▬ I've gone on a blind date.
▬ I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
▬ I have a fear of abandonment.
▬ I've been divorced.
▬ I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
▬ I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
▬ I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
▬ I've kept something from a past relationship.

▬ I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
▬ I have lied to my parents about where I am.
▬ I am keeping a secret from the world.
▬ I've cheated while playing a video game.
▬ I've cheated on a test.
▬ I've driven through a red light.
▬ I've been suspended from school.
▬ I've witnessed a crime.
▬ I've been in a fist fight.
▬ I've been arrested.
▬ I've shoplifted.

▬ I've consumed alcohol.
▬ I have/do smoke cigarettes.
▬ I have/do smoke pot.
▬ I regularly drink.
▬ I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
▬ I take cough medication when I'm not sick.
▬ I've done hard drugs.
▬ I've been addicted to an illegal substance.
▬ I can't swallow pills.
▬ I can swallow about five pills at a time no problem.

▬ I can sing well.
▬ I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
▬ I open up to others too easily.
▬ I watch the news.
▬ I don't kill bugs.
▬ I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for sake of being able to rhyme.
▬ I swear regularly.
▬ I sing in the shower.
▬ I am a morning person.
▬ I paid for my mobile phone ring tone.
▬ I'm a snob about grammar.
▬ I am a sports fanatic.
▬ I play with my hair.
▬ I have/had "x"s in my screen name.
▬ I love being neat.
▬ I love spam.
▬ I've copied more than 30 cds in a day.
▬ I bake well.
▬ My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
▬ I don't know how to shoot a gun.
▬ I am in love with love.
▬ I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
▬ I laugh at my own jokes.
▬ I eat fast food weekly.
▬ I believe in ghosts.
▬ I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
▬ I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
▬ I am really ticklish.
▬ I love white chocolate.
▬ I bite my nails.
▬ I play video games.
▬ I'm good at remembering faces.
▬ I'm good at remembering names.
▬ I'm good at remembering dates.
▬ I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
▬ My answers are totally honest.

Crystal [userpic]

Satisfy Me, Lord.

September 7th, 2008 (06:59 pm)

current mood: satisfied

So, a friend of mine posted these verses and questions in her journal, they came from her Amplified bible..which I reaaaally want to get one of ^-^ because they sound awesome. And the questions were foot notes below the verses.

I just felt..compelled..when reading them, to answer. It challenged me also, to dig deeper into God's word, to learn more about him, so that I can grow closer in my relationship with Him, and be able to give a better defense for my belief.


"His voice and speech are exceedingly sweet; yes, He is altogether lovely [the whole of
him delights and is precious]. This is my Beloved, and this is my Friend, o daughters of
Jerusalem." Songs 5:16
Is my Savior unquestioningly the One altogether lovely, the One above all others most precious to me? Can I tell how and why Christ is more to me than any human being or han all earthly possessions?

If someone were to ask me that question...how would I respond? my heart feels God's presence, it overflows with his joy and peace and love. Christ, has never failed me, not once. He has always come through for me. He has NEVER left me alone, and has chased after me even when I chased after other lovers. He has been the only one there..when I've had none to turn to. He gives me peace in the depths of my soul knowing that I can trust in Him and not have to continually worry about life..

Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust God from the bottom of your heart, don't try to figure everything out on your own. Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he's the one who will keep you on track."

"Don't fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns, before you know it a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life." 1 Peter 5:7

"For we know that all things work together for good, to those who love Him, to those who've been called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28

He has constantly proven himself to me, though he doesn't need to. Because he has already proven his love for me, at the cross. He has taken care of me and my family so many times in the past, I know He is alive and working in this crazy world. I believe it, with all my heart.

As far as if he is the one most precious to me?

I want him to be, it is a constant and daily struggle..to remind myself that He is the only one that satisfies, I've tried... to find satisfaction elsewhere, but there is none and nothing that could slake the thirst my soul had. No one but Christ. He alone quenches my thirst and makes it an everlasting fount within me. (John 4:14) So that he is always the one I want to turn to when I feel the need to go to food, or to the TV or somewhere to escape whatever I'm feeling...my lusts..my over desires, they are sin and idols. I want to turn to Christ! I want to be filled with him, reminded that He is all I need! and in Him I have all I need. Pslam 23:1 "The Lord is my shepherd I have everything I need."
I want a deeper relationship with him, I want to know him better, to understand his word spoken to me, so that I can be a light to those around me and can shine for Christ. That is what my soul truly desires, not all these other distractions that take away from reality for only a short while, they never last.

I love this book "The Journey Of Desire" by John Eldredge, it's simply amazing. And I recommend you all read it if you get the chance.

He quotes the verses in Matthew 4:8-11. Where Satan is trying to tempt Christ into worshiping him, so then he will give him all the world. And of course Jesus rebukes him with scripture "Worship the Lord and serve Him only." Then the devil left and angels came to minister to Christ.

"The cat's out of the bag, Satan has revealed his true aim. "You don't have to take the route of suffering." he says. "There are shortcuts, just give your heart away." It all comes down to worship. What we will give our hearts away to, in turn for the promise of life? May says this is the "ultimate invitation to idolatry". Jesus shuts Satan down: "There are no short cuts, and my heart belongs to God alone.""


"Tell me, O You whom my soul loves, where You pasture Your flocks..." Songs 1:7
Does my spirit crave the Divine Shepherd, even in the presence of the best that the wold can offer me?

This one...makes me think of a night that I was with a friend, at one of their buisness events. All the Diamonds (The top rank in the buisness) were parading in their exquisite gowns, or tuxedos. Everyone around just gawked and I could see the money symbol in their eyes. That's why they were all here, to make money, to look like that. To have EVERYTHING their heart could want. But..would that really make them happy? No, of course not. Once you have those things, you continue wanting more. Why? because that desire that you had..the one for being completely happy or satisfied? it's not satisfied. And it can never be in temporal earthly things, so they'll keep searching and looking and striving to either have more..or to try and get rich so they CAN have more. In all honesty, the whole ordeal just made me sad. Is that really, all they want out of life? a huge house, a thousands cars, clothes, etc. Empty, vanities that will never last. No, it's not what they truly want, but they are being led to think it is, to think that it's what they NEED to be happy. So yes, my spirit does indeed crave the Divine Shepherd, because it has seen and found out that only HE can satisfy, only he can give us the life we were created to have. And let me tell you...it's not going to be in this world.


"Arise, My love, My fair one, and come away." Songs 2:13
Do I take time to meet my Good Shepherd each day, letting Him tell me of His love, and cheering His heart with my interest in Him?

This is something, I've struggled with for a long time. But it's also something we've been discussing in my bible study. So, I'm trying once again..I've set a certain time for meeting with God, and I HAVE to shut out everything else around me but Him, to keep my focus on Him. That takes self-control..which is one of the things I'm currently learning. Because I know I NEED to meet with him, I need to have that precious time spent with him. To feed my soul, to take in what he is speaking to me. Not to ignore and shove him off because "I don't feel like it." I NEED to know him. I want to know him. So I'm praying for the self-control to keep my focus on Christ during these times, and to have endurance to continue keeping on schedule with my time for Him.


"Worship occurs when we say to God from the bottom of our hearts, "You are the One whom I desire." As Thomas a Kempis prayed.
"There is nothing created that can fully satisfy my desires. Make me one with you in a sure bond of heavenly love, for You alone are sufficient to Your lover, and without You all things are vain and of no substance." - The Journey of Desire - John Eldredge.

Crystal [userpic]

(no subject)

August 23rd, 2008 (07:45 pm)

current mood: energetic

Sooo! I have not posted in quite some time, have I? ^^;; I'll give a proper update soon! I promise. But most of you who read this already know whats been going on XDD


Have you ever kissed anyone named Matthew?
..That'd be a negative :P never kissed anyone :P

Name someone that made you laugh today?
My dad

How late did you stay up last night?

If you could move somewhere else, would you?
Most probably, yes, yes I would XD

Which of your friends lives closest to you?
Uhh, Sheryl.

Do you believe ex's can be friends?
I know some people who've been able to stay friends, but, yeaah, not always easy.

What did you do yesterday?
I had a blast, being crazy hyper on coffee XD

How do you feel about Diet Dr Pepper?
Diet = fail *agrees*

When was the last time you cried?
Umm..last weekish? XD

What bed did you sleep in last night?
My own.

What was the last thing someone bought for you?

Who took your profile picture?
It's an icon :P

Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Chels or Dustin XD

Can you live a day without TV?
Yes, I can.

What are you listening to?
Muuusiiic XD

Audio Adrenaline - Undefeated ^^

Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
Yes, friendships are definitely very worth it! ^^

When was the last time you were extremely disappointed?
Ummm..a long time ago XD

Where do you wish you were right now?
Hiking on Mt. Rainier! XD

Is anything bothering you right now?
Not really, no.

Do you hate anyone and why?
No, I don't hate anyone.

Does anyone hate you?
I do not know.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Yes, but that doesn't mean you trust them completely at first, you should proceed with caution.

Do you believe in love at first sight?
No, I believe in crushes at first sight :P Love is much deeper than that.

Ever want to get married?
Yes, in God's perfect timing.

Do you like anyone now?
I like lots of people! :P XD

Do you ever keep arguing when you know you're wrong?
Only..when I'm joking around. If I'm in a serious argument..I usually get silent when I realize I'm wrong XD

Who was the last person's voice you heard?
the singer, in this song XD

Do you like your life as of right now?
Yes ^^

Regret doing anything in the past week?

What were you doing 20 minutes ago?
Eating watermelon.

Whose car were you last in?
The one my aunt is letting me drive XD

What was the highlight of your week?
Hmmm..Probably last night XDD

Where does most of your family live?
Here in Virginia.

Did you kiss or hug anyone in the last week?
Hug, yes.

Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?
Umm, no way :P

Do you want someone back in your life?
Yessss, I miss my friends who live too far away! XD

Rent a movie or go to movies?
Go to the movies! ^^

Are you wearing any clothes that don't belong to you?

Mountains or Beach?
Both, at different times, for different reasons :P

Single or Taken?

Dr. Pepper or Coke?

Is there a difference between the words 'best friend' and 'friend'?
Yes, a best friend is someone who knows you...the real you, but loves you anyways XD

Do you miss anyone?
Yes, indeed.

Can you recall the last time you sincerely liked someone?

Who is your celebrity crush?
No body.

Can you touch your toes?

Do you take walks often?
I will soon ^^ when autumn rolls around.

Is silence really golden?

Are you afraid to grow up?
I am sometimes, other times I'm not XD It's gunna happen whether or not I'm afraid.

Who were you with last night?

Can you count past 100?

What language are you taking?
None atm, but I think learning Korean would be cool ^^

Any upcoming vacations?
I had an awesome one already ^^

Do you care what people think of you?
Sometimes, working on that ^^;;

Would you call yourself smart?
Uhh..not extremely so..no XD

Do you like to read?
Indeed, I do ^^

Do you own a pair of Nike's?
Yes, my only pair, ever XD

Have you ever touched an elephant?
Don't think so.

Plans for tomorrow?
Church, lunch, movie XD

Is anything wrong?

Do you want to go to college?
I...don't know. I've been praying for God's direction.

Do you have a good relationship with your parent(s)?
Umm..well, it's complicated ^^;; but for the most part, yes.

What did you do for your last birthday?
Uhh..what DID I do?! XD

What were you doing at midnight last night?
Being crazy hyper XD

Name something you CANNOT wait for?
A joob! yes that sounds odd :P

Have you ever changed one of your friends status to get a good laugh?
No :P

What's your favorite season?
I love them all, but Spring is my most favorite ^^

Have you ever talked to Tom?
Uhh..no :P

Last thing you ate/drank?
Coffeeee!! ^^

Who was the last person you rode in the car with?
My dad

Who's making you feel the way you are right now?
God ^^

Most visited webpage?
Bump Thread, and facebook.

Coke or Pepsi?

Looking forward to something this weekend?
Yes ^^

How many siblings do you have?

Do you have any pets?
uhh, 2 dogs, 2 cats, 1 rat, 1 rabbit.

What's your favorite number?
3 ^^ I've decided XD

What are you watching now?
Nada :P

Do you know how to swim?

Is good grammar attractive?
Uhh..I'm not sure about attractive. But it is nice to know guys can speak english, properly :P

Have you known any of your friends your whole life?

Are any of your friends taller than you?
Yes XD

Have you ever been ditched by a friend?

Where do your friends live?
US mostly, *waves to Sam in Australia*

Have you lost or forgotten a friends phone number?
*cries* Yes...I fail :P

Have you been to most of your friends houses?

Do you get bored of your girlfriend/boyfriend easily?
I do not have one.

Has one of your crushes ever called you self centered before?

Who do you want for President?
I don't know, not McCain or Obama :P

Do you think abortions are horrible?
Yes, I do.

Do you enjoy drama?
Not flakey, teenage drama, no :P

Who was the last person that said "I love you" to you?

Crystal [userpic]

(no subject)

July 31st, 2008 (01:26 am)

current mood: sleepy

Comment anonymously saying:
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▬ one thing that you don't think i see about myself:
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Crystal [userpic]

My Freedom

July 28th, 2008 (04:02 pm)

current mood: touched

So I love this new song of Krystal Meyers ^-^/ it's pretty amazing, give it a listen!

Underneath this skin is a heart that's bleeding
Underneath that heart I'm waiting, and praying
Can You really feel what I'm feeling?
'Cause this world don't ask, it takes it steal

And can You feel this heart it's beating like a drum
It's beating it's calling out to You, will You come
And rain on this desert heart like only You can do?
Can you hear this soul is crying, my soul is crying
Calling out to You, will You come wash over me
Like only You can do, will You be my freedom?
Will You be my freedom?

When I am tempted to crawl back and hide my face
Will You wrap me up with love, truth and grace?
How'd I become the mess that I have made
I'm afraid to look you in the eye because of my shame


Will You be my freedom? Will You be my freedom?

How beautiful, yes it is
How wonderful to be set free

Can you hear this soul is crying, my soul is crying
Calling out to You, will You come wash over me
Like only You can do, will You be my freedom?
Will You be my freedom? Will You be my freedom?

You are my freedom

Crystal [userpic]

There is a time for everything

July 27th, 2008 (12:00 am)

current mood: touched

So this week has been emotionally and physically challenging and stressful. But I'm finally..almost completely moved in :P still have boxes to unpack..and my keyboard is on my lap XD but it's all good..that'll all be taken care of.

For those of you who may not know, I moved into my great aunts house with my sisters and mom. I feel bad for dad, but I don't know that I could take his constant questions and constant need of attention, we are going to see a movie together after church tomorrow..and I'll try to drive up and play some tennis with him now and then. *sighs* it's a tough situation, because I don't agree with what mom's doing, but I think that God may be using this situation to pull dad even closer to Him. And hopefully..eventually..bring mom back to Him as well, it's not as if she hates God now or anything :P according to her..she's doing nothing that is considered wrong in God's eyes..we've done all we can do in that area...that's between her and God now, but from personal experience..when you put a person above God, things usually get pulled out from under your feet. Which is not a bad thing, at all, believe me..when it happened to me I realized later..that was God's way of saving me.

Anyways! We'll only be in this house for a year at the most, after that..I don't know what God has planned..I can't see to the future :P (thank God! because I'd never understand it XD ) I'd rather take the curve balls as they come anyway, which this move was a complete curve ball...but I know that all things happen for a reason ^^

So that's just an update on what's been going on ^^

God Bless you guys!! And always trust in God, no matter the circumstance, He'll be there..
"For I the Lord your God, will hold your right hand, saying to you; 'Fear Not, I will help you'" - Isaiah 41:13

Crystal [userpic]


July 14th, 2008 (04:11 pm)

current mood: thoughtful

"Why are you cast down, O my soul? and why are you disquieted within me?
Hope in God; For I shall yet praise Him, my help and my God." Psalm 42:5

I found out today that my great uncle died two nights ago, I wasn't really close to him, but seeing my grandma and great aunt so torn up was really hard..I didn't know what to say, I just kept hugging them.

I also found out we'll be moving in with my great aunt next week. Since we were looking for a place to move and she doesn't wanna be alone in her house...I'm kinda iffy about it, but God knows what He's doing. So I trust Him, but it's also been making me wonder about moving out west to WA state. Perhaps in a year or so..I guess I'll have to see where God leads.

*sighs* I try not to be depressed because I know it brings people down, but sometimes you just can't hold it in, and it's not good to. I'm also disappointed in my dad apparently back in February he got a credit card under mom's name and has already maxed out 6,000 dollars on it..and we have no idea how he did that. So I'm coming back to wondering if he has just been using me, I don't know! I wanna talk to my pastor some this Tuesday, because he told me to come to him if I needed to talk.

I forgot to mention that dad hasn't been paying quite a few debts..and so we don't know when..but whoever those people are that come and take your stuff away to sell it for the money you owe them...could come at whatever time, so we're really trying to pack up our stuff quickly. (like an anime or something :P )

Just so you all know, this doesn't mean I hate my dad or that I'm going to quit talking to him, I'm just sad.

Anywho..that's whats been going on.

"Tell me I can make it through this day
I don't even have the words to pray
You have been the only one who never left me
Help me find a way through all my fears
Help me see the light through all my tears
Help me see that I am not alone in this

Cause I need, I need a hand to hold
to hold me from the edge, the edge I'm sliding over fast.
Cause I need, I need Your hand to hold
To hold me from the edge
the edge I'm sliding past
Hold onto me." - Superchick

Crystal [userpic]

(no subject)

July 7th, 2008 (10:55 pm)

Hawk Nelson - You have what I need.

I've tried my best to hear out the masses,
I've heard it all, from A to Z.
I've read it all, been to all of the classes,
And still I'm tryin' but I just can't see through the smoke.

And I don't want it, this confusion,
I don't want a false solution.
Give me something to hold on to,
I want what you have 'cause you have what I need.

I know it's hard to be yourself when
you're not sure just who that is.
All I wanted was satisfaction,
but all I got was empty fists.
Can you hear me?

And I don't want it, this confusion,
I don't want a false solution.
Give me something to hold on to,
I want what you have 'cause you have what I need.

All I wanted was honesty,
and that was something only You give.
It took forever just to realize that I had to give myself away,
so I could see Your face and learn how to live.
I can't erase Your mark,
You may take every thing else away.

And I don't want it, this confusion,
I don't want a false solution.
Give me something to hold on to,
I want what you have 'cause you have what I need.

Gosh, I tell you I have those days when I just wish every distraction around me would just dissapear and that I could just have God, to keep my focus on Him always. It's such a struggle..and probably one of the biggest for me, to remind myself that it's for Him that I live. It's so easy to push Him to the back of my mind and do whatever it is I want to do. I want to want more of Him in my life, because I know that only He offers the true satisfaction that everyone searches for, only He gives what I truly need.

Crystal [userpic]

(no subject)

June 26th, 2008 (01:09 pm)

current mood: cheerful

Letting Go - Francesca Battistelli

My heart beats, standing on the edge
But my feet have finally left the ledge
Like an acrobat
There's no turning back

I'm letting go
Of the life I planned for me
And my dreams
Losing control
Of my destiny
Feels like I'm falling and that's what it's like to believe
So I'm letting go

This is a giant leap of faith
Trusting and trying to embrace
The fear of the unknown
Beyond my comfort zone

Giving in to your gravity
Knowing You are holding me
I'm not afraid
Feels like I'm falling and that's what it's like to believe
Feels like I'm falling and this is the life for me

Crystal [userpic]

Cuteness Overload!!!

June 20th, 2008 (11:48 am)

current mood: loved

Oh my gosh! I just finished watching this anime movie called "The Girl Who Leapt Through time"
Such a funny and very sweet story, you guys should definitely watch it if you ever get the chance...it made me cry! but then again...I'm very emotional XD I definitely wanna buy it.

Here's the trailer for you guys ^^

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